love. not for me

. i am a cry baby. i always cry thinkin abt life .. .. why i am born like this...why i cant b selfish.. wen i wanted to b selfish ,i always regreted it. i dont need any family.i am making all the poor weak unprevilegded people my family...i dont need a girl frienbd .loving a girl is just like a fantasy movie for me.physical pleasure. evereybody thin ks abt this at my age...